Today's Rant: Useless and Clueless

Lately, I want to punch myself in the face. I used to think that no matter what happens in this world, I wouldn't let it dampen my spirit. But now I'm feeling like an old and weathered wood. This is not a matter where there's a lot of difficult things happened in your life. Quite the contrary, nothing's happened in my life. When did I let my life become this boring?  Where did it all go wrong?

Okay. I lied. Something happened in my life. Obviously there's something wrong about the direction that I take. I hate to do same thing over and over again. It smother my breath of creativity and eventually will kill my precious little grey cells. So why did I let my daily routine stole crumbs of happiness that I usually feel before I go to sleep everyday? I'm bored to death with everything so I don't have motivation to finish all those files and documents that piles up in my desk. Doing similar things over and over again send chills down to my spine that make me flinch everytime I see things that I have to work on. God, I'm so helpless!! My reluctance to do my job make me feel useless. Because it makes me feel like I'm not capable to do an easy job. Why did I have to make things complicated? It's not a difficult thing to do but why do I hesitate? Geez, I'm so clueless with my own life.

The nothingness in my life feels like it might drive me out of sanity. Sometimes I even pictured myself singing "Long View" by Green Day, one of my favorite song in "Dookie".

"I got no motivation
Where is my motivation?
No time for the motivation"
*humming*

What a terrible song to be an anthem. T^T. Maybe I left my motivation somewhere out there.

As if the situation is not already bad enough, it has been sometime that I never love someone. Not even the slightest crush or affection. What is wrong with me? Am I becoming one of those "herbivore men" like in Japan? Personally, I always feel that love is the greatest inspiration and motivation. When I'm not falling in love with someone, I usually seek consolation and try to induce spark of affection to other things. Fangirling to an artist or idolizing a characters in manga are my attempts to keep my spirit up. But lately it doesn't work anymore. Hah *take a deep breath*. I feel pathetic for trying to motivate myself with those things. Whatever. Call me pathetic, call me what you like. I just want to blabbering about this. I don't know. Maybe the willingness to do something that we don't want to do for the sake of going on is just a process in our journey to become wiser and more mature. Ah, I have to end this mindless rant before I forget what was my main objective to write this piece of mind and it's begin spiraling out of control. Ja matta nee!

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Fall Out Boy Save Rock and Roll Tour in Jakarta - Live Concert Report

I've known Fall Out Boy since 2004, after I stumble upon their song "Chicago is Two Years Ago" from their "Take This to Your Grave" album that was recommended by my friend in Multiply. At that time I want to expand my music's taste and began  to collect several songs from unknown indie bands, including Fall Out Boy. I quickly like Patrick's voice because it sounds so cute and so young in that song (errr... I can't really explain why I said a person's voice as "so young". I just thought that his voice wasn't mature yet at that time, you know. Clearly sounds like a teenager voice). I wasn't search anything about them or try to download more songs from them after that though.

I first notice them properly after "Sugar, We're Going Down" was released. That's the first time I see them in a music video. But it's not until they release "Dance Dance" that I became a big fan. Since that, I've been collecting all of their songs, including the bonus track and b-side. I couldn't see them live in 2007 so I swear to see them the next time they come to Indonesia. Yesterday, I finally fulfilled my promise. Okay, now I would tell you about  my experience.

I came to the live concert venue at 2 pm. There are a lot of people that already queued in front of Skenoo Hall.

The queue at 2 pm

There are official merchandise booth but sadly due to constraint budget, I ended up not buying anything >///<. The gate was open at 7 pm and we waited patiently. I don't know why, there's problem with the queue in every concert from Big Daddy Entertainment that I attended. Because the queue wasn't in orderly fashion and people rushed to the front stage, there are people step in my feet and my shoes ripped off . T^T.  Wow. This is the second time that I experience such a "passionate" fellow audience. Almost all live concert that I attended before was pretty safe and without accident so it's kind of surprise me. 

We started calling out Fall Out Boy in the live venue and at about 07.30 pm, they started to show a video from @FallOutBoy_INA. We sang along to all songs in the video so it's pretty fun. Unfortunately the audio of the video is not good that I barely hear anything the fans said. Fall Out Boy showed up a little bit late, I think around 8.10 pm. As soon as the live concert started, the atmosphere became pretty intense. I don't know what's they call it. Moshing? People begin to push and slam into each other. It's pretty fun, but it's pretty dangerous too. My right toe is broken because some people step on it. Ouch! And I was afraid someone could steal anything from my bag too so I step backward. Fortunately, it made me could see Fall Out Boy more clearly. When i was in the front, people is too crowded and jostling each others that I couldn't really see them properly. Here are the concert setlist:

1. The Phoenix
2. I Sleep with Someone in Fall Out Boy and All I Got was This Stupid Song Written About Me
3. A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More "Touch Me"
4. This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arm Race
5. Alone Together
6. Thriller
7. Death Valley
8. Sugar, We're Going Down
9. Beat It
10. Young Volcanoes
11. I'm Like a Lawyer with the Way I'm Always Trying to Get You Off
12. Grand Theft Autumn/Where is Your Boy
13. Drum Solo
14. Dance, Dance
15. Just One Yesterday
16. I Don't Care
17. My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark (Light Em Up)
18. Save Rock and Roll
19. Thnks fr th Mmrs
20. Saturday

Since I was focused in enjoying the performance, it might not be accurate. Please correct me if I'm wrong about the setlist. There is Joe's guitar solo but I'm not sure when. Maybe after This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arm Race. Here are some photos from the concert. All photos are owned by Picturesque Scene. If you want to see all the photos, just visit her Tumblr.

Cute Patrick. Credit to: Picturesque Scene

Handsome Pete. Credit to: Picturesque Scene

Lovely Joe and his afro. Credit to: Picturesque Scene

I don't know why, I never expect that Andy is this handsome. Credit to: Picturesque Scene

Acoustic Performance of Me &You. Credit to: Picturesque Scene

I think this is during "Save Rock and Roll". Credit to: Picturesque Scene

A fan throw this hat to the stage. Patrick pick it up and put it on Pete. Sweet. Credit to: Picturesque Scene

I barely hear what Pete or Patrick said because the sound system was not good and fans around me was too noisy. I can only hear the part where Pete said that he took 19 hours flight from Los Angeles to Jakarta just to see us and how it's all payed off when he saw our enthusiasm. He also said that there are lots of Indonesian fans that ask them to Jakarta, that's why they decide to come back and do live concert here again. I think Patrick's voice was a little bit hoarse when he speak. Despite this, his voice is really good when he sing. I love it. He's so cute >////< (I'm a big fan of Patrick Stump). I really hope he would glance at me but out eyes never meet. The one whom eyes meet my gaze was Pete >///<. By the way, Pete come to the front at the end of the concert and shake hands with some fans.

If I had complains about this live concert, those are the sound systems and the audience. This is the 3rd time I saw live concert in Skenoo Hall and the sound system is never sound clear to me.When Andy throw his sticks, the audience got excited and jostling each other to get it. Unfortunately, there is a girl near me that fell because someone push her *angry*. Moreover, when she fell some audience knock her head with their feet, hence her forehead was hurt and bleeding *really angry*. Her friends then brought her outside. I'm worried about her. I hope she's okay. As a fellow fans, I understand the excitement to get a stick or guitar pick from our favorite artist. But please consider the safety of people around you too.

Overall the live concert is fun, amazing and I'm satisfied with their performance. All fans are really passionate, we sang along to all songs. I can't stop singing their songs in my boarding house because it remind me of the memories when I saw them yesterday. I'm really tired, my voice is hoarse, and my toe is hurt but I don't regret it.

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Gravity (Review)

So last week I went to cinema to watch Gravity after hear many people hail it as one of the best movie in 2013. Moreover, the movie is about space (if you don't know, I'm pretty much a fan of everything about the space. My former obsession was to become an astronaut). That's why I was eager to watch it even though some people say this movie is boring. Here are my opinion about this film:

This movie tell us a story about how Dr. Ryan Stone (Sandra Bullock) must survive in space and attempt to come back to earth after her space shuttle mission fail. Honestly, this movie didn't bore me at all. People who said this movie is boring probably are the one who had particular interest in action movie or dramatic movie. But it's pretty short so I don't have any time to be bored.

The main point of this movie is the special effect and the cinematography. It's superb! Make me feels like I was in space and the pictures are really beautiful. I watch it in 3D and when the debris of space object move towards Sandra Bullock, I unconsciously held my breath. The acting is good too. There are only two main actors here, Sandra Bullock and George Cloney (Btw, he is charming, naughty, and funny as Mark Kowalsky). There are thrills and tensions in this movie but personally it's not thrilling enough for me. Strangely, I cry in the middle of this movie. It's not a sad movie. It's a survival movie. But I can't hold back my tears when Dr. Ryan Stone is in a desperate situation, thinking about her life and how she doesn't have any motivation to live anymore, then attempt to commit suicide through hipoxia. It made me contemplated and gave afterthought to my whole live and the fact that I don't really have strong motivation to live. Ho ho ho. Why suddenly I talk about something sad?

By the way, I recommend you to watch this movie in 3D. I bet Gravity will win Oscar for Best Special Effects. Have you watch it in cinema? What do you think about this movie?

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Museum Nasional (The National Museum of Indonesia)

The National Museum of Indonesia is a very renowned museum near National Monument and probably my favorite museum in Indonesia. It is also called "Elephant Museum" because it has a bronze elephant statue located in front of the museum. This statue is a present from King Chulalongkorn (Rama V), a king from Thailand that visited it in 1871.

The museum collections is grouped and arranged according the certain subjects like ethnography, archaeology, ceramics, etc.  It consist of 2 buildings, Gedung Gajah and Gedung Arca, that is connected through a glass walled bridge gallery. Here are some photos that I took when I went there:

The reasons why I love this museum is because I can learn about the cultural diversity in Indonesia through its collections. It makes me respect other regions culture and want to travel all over this lovely country. I even learn more about Balinese Culture in this museum. Surprisingly, through its collections I became aware that my knowledge about Bali is limited even though I'm a Balinese >///<. I recommend those who want to see the history and cultural diversity in Indonesia to visit this lovely museum.

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Museum Bank Mandiri

Museum Bank Mandiri is located at the left side of Museum Bank Indonesia. I often go there because sometimes I teach street children there (I'm a volunteer of Sahabat Anak, a Non Government Organization that is established to help street children). Here are some pictures that I took when I was there:

Unlike Museum Bank Indonesia, this museum is a little bit dirty and spooky. I hope Bank Mandiri could make it more attractive.

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