Music

I love many kinds of music and had went through various change in musical preference. From indie to mainstream. From classical music to jazz. Music is very important for me.

Books

A little bit different from other girls, rather than spend my money to buy clothes, shoes, or cosmetics, I usually choose to buy books instead.

Pharmacy

Pharmacists are healthcare professionals who practice in pharmacy, the field of health sciences focusing on safe and effective medication use. For me the science of pharmacy is fascinating and interesting.

Movie

I'm a movie enthusiast. Particularly for Fantasy, Adventure, Animation and Science-Fiction Movie. It's a nice way to escape the reality for a while.

Monday, May 28, 2012

Home by Tablo featuring Lee Sora

Home is one of my favorite song from Tablo. As usual, the lyrics is beautiful and touching. What makes this song even more beautiful is Lee Sora's voice. Renowned as one of the most unique and beautiful voice in South Korea, her voice could makes me overflowing with emotion. This song is great, especially if you hear it when you sad or frustrated. Here is the video of the live performance on Lee Sora's Show, Second Proposal:



The english translation of the lyrics (credit to Project Musictology):

It’s dizzying to step over the threshold. It’s a familiar border.
Needless feelings that I pushed away because they cluttered my heart are coated with dust
If I leave here, it will be death. I dropped my steps, for I hated the unfamiliar happiness more than familiar sorrow…
I’m afraid that I will be a used-up shoe. The world, the time, the people put me on crooked. Forget.
What the world thinks piles up like the mountains of newspapers and notices in front of my door. Do not lay out all those demands.
This is my home. Leave me alone. Do not come in, anywhere but here.

Even without the tears I cry now.
I just cry like I breathe.
Even when I try to get out of the sorrow-turned-house, on the threshold I cry.
Without realizing I cry.

Would I have the right to happiness? Why is it that I’m mired so deeply in such shallow wound.
Living is like getting through a hail of arrows, but why do I have such a big target tacked on my heart?
Emotions run the extremes, and I get left behind, slow-feet-ed. I can’t grasp my heart.
I let the world slip through. With happiness only few steps up, I crank up more stairs myself.
For some people all this would be terrifying, but for me its more familiar than laughing.
Crying is just like breathing, the longer you hold it the longer you will exhale.
Let me breathe. Sorrow is my home. I’ll stay, right here, where I was.
Even when I go out to happiness, I know well now that I’ll always come back home.

Even without the tears I cry now.
I just cry like I breathe.
Even when I try to get out of the sorrow-turned-house, on the threshold I cry.
Without realizing I cry.

To the sorrow that has become my home,
To the sorrow that has become my home, can I invite you?

Even without the tears I cry now.
I just cry like I breathe.
Even when I try to get out of the sorrow-turned-house, on the threshold I cry.
Without realizing I cry.

If you interested, you could download it here
I'm sure you won't regret it! Have a nice day!

Monday, May 14, 2012

L'Arc~en~Ciel World Tour 2012, Jakarta

Almost 2 weeks ago, my dream to came to one of L'Arc~en~Ciel concert became reality. I've been their fan from so long time ago so the first time I heard about their concert in Indonesia I feel so excited. I didn't have any idea that there were lots of their fans that more excited than me tough (laugh). The very first day of ticket sales online, all the VIP and premium ticket was sold out. That day, I was in Bali spending holiday with my family. And while I was still thinking whether I would booked VIP ticket later in Jakarta, there's no more VIP or premium ticket left for me (laugh). So, I bought a regular ticket instead (>.< and after that suddenly some people sells their VIP tickets because they couldn't attended the concert).

My ticket
Their concert was held in weekday so I had difficulty to attended it on time. I have to work, duh. I spoke to my bosses, tell them that I would leave 30 minutes earlier than I obliged to because I have to go to L'Arc`en~Ciel concert. Silly me. I thought 30 minutes would be sufficient. I underestimated Jakarta traffic!! When I'm finally arrived at the concert place, the queue had been so long >.<.  I was afraid that I'm gonna be in the back row.

the queue to enter the concert place
I enter the concert place at 7 o'clock. The waiting seems too long but fortunately all the L'Arc~en~Ciel fans there was so funny that I smile, laugh, and not get bored. I even be acquainted with some people. Finally, concert started at 8 o'clock and it was one of the best moment of my life!!!! Hyde's voice was admirable and so melodious!!!! Well, he lost his voice sometimes when he tired but overall the performance was super!!!!


I was afraid that I couldn't see their performance from the back row. Fortunately I could see it from the big screen on the left and right the main screen. Their MC was so funny too because they tried to speak Indonesian. I sing, dance, scream at the concert along with all fans there. I really was a dork in that concert. wkwkwk. It felt so great!!! So many people there become one, act together as fans.  It drizzled some moment before the encore. We sing along the chorus from "Anata" in the drizzle rain and suddenly when L'Arc~en~Ciel finally show up themself for encore, the rain stop!! As if those rain only drop in order to create the melancholic atmosphere in "Anata". The organizer open the fence that separate the premium and regular gate. I go to the front along with some fans. We're so happy as the fence that separate the premium and VIP was also opened. That's why I could go to the VIP place and finally see L'Arc~en~Ciel straight with my eyes!!! Yes baby, I really see them!!! I was so happy at that time. I was rushed to go to the concert without able to eat anything first, stuck in traffic jam for hours, experience long queuing but it all paid off with their performance!! I'm looking forward to the next concert that I would attend. What would it be?? Fu fu fu

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Bad by Tablo

Lately, I've been listening to a hip hop/rap  artist called Tablo. I'm not even a huge fan of Korean music, but I must admit that I slowly become attached to his songs.

Once said as one of the best lyricist in Korea, his songs has deep meaning that capture my attention. It's not surprising since Tablo hold Master Degree in Creative Writing from Stanford University (Yes darling. Stanford University that I'm longing all my life to enter!!!). Well, his academic background gave him so much trouble in 2010-2011 because there's  a community that suspected he actually never go to Stanford University and demand the truth from Tablo. Despite the irrefutable prove that he really hold master degree from Stanford University, that community still exist. Geez, sometimes I hate those netizens. 


I quickly in love with his music
One of my favorite songs from him is "Bad". I never had any bad experiences in love that could make me say that this is my theme song but somehow I could link it to my personal feeling . Yeah baby, Love is so bad bad bad bad bad, as you could feel from the lyrics of this song.

Here is the english translation of the song:
They say something has changed.
They say I’ve changed.
They tell me somewhere I turned cold, that I used to be so affectionate.
They say something has changed.
They say I’ve changed.
They tell me somewhere I turned cold, that I used to be so affectionate.
They claim they don’t understand.
They tell me I used to be cheerful but now my eyes and tone of my voice lost its light and admits fear.
Unsure whether it’s because of the painful memory but I go on by emptying my heart.
Lucid hearts are defective products of this world. That’s why I badly want to taint mine.
They tell me that if you love, you start to take after each other; maybe I want to take after you a bit.
Atrocious. Love is atrocious.
You were the very reason I breathe for, but now you’re suffocating me.
Love is so bad, bad, bad, bad, bad.
Love only gets worse as you dig deeper.
Love is so bad, bad, bad, bad, bad.
Love only pains as you learn about it.
More you know, worse you become.

The words I wouldn't normally get riled up about: “You don’t seem yourself”.
I question, “What is me?” but of course I know only too well.
I can’t bear to look at myself.
Whether I’ve been embraced or have closed my eyes, I just can’t sleep at ease.
I yearn for alcohol, something I usually have hard drinking.
Drunk on anxiety, as the dawn drizzle pours down I stagger through the street
I start to quarrel and my mouth that once used to whisper so many kind words has been tainted by a profanity.
Can’t rest till this small thing becomes a catastrophe.
I end up telling lies like a second nature and you keep harassing me in the name of ‘Love’
Atrocious. Human are atrocious.
You were the very reason I opened my eyes for, but now you’re hiding them.
Love is so bad, bad, bad, bad, bad.
Love only gets worse as you dig deeper.
Love is so bad, bad, bad, bad, bad.
Love only pains as you learn about it.
Only thing that’s worse than you is,
I, who couldn’t forget you and ended up being tainted.
I, who continues to act cold towards the other people.
Only thing that’s worse than you is,
I, who couldn’t forget you and ended up being tainted.
I, who is cold towards the other people.
Atrocious, it’s atrocious.
It hurts.
It hurts so much.
What we call love.
Love is a sickness.
Can I get a witness?
Atrocious, it’s atrocious.
It hurts.
It hurts so much.
What we call love.
Love is a sickness.
Can I get a witness?
Love is a sickness.
Love.
Love is so bad, bad, bad, bad, bad.
Love only gets worse as you dig deeper.
Love is so bad, bad, bad, bad, bad.
Love only pains as you learn about it.
Credit to:LYBIO.net

This is the Video in Youtube:


You could download this song here.

If you prefer song with more commercial feel, you could watch other  Tablo's song, Tomorrow:

So, what do you think?  It's not my fault if I like Tablo, isn't it?

Friday, May 11, 2012

Sashiburi Da Ne!!!

It's been a long time that i never post anything in this blog. Maybe because I'm busy. Maybe because I'm lazy. Maybe because there's something wrong in my life recently that it feels like I'm going crazy. Maybe because a bunch of other stupid reasons. But lets forget about all that whining, the show must go on.

If I look back years before, I feel that nowadays I'm really different with my old-self. Half of me change to be better, the other half worsen. For example, in creativity. When I was in junior and senior high school I love to write stories, poems, drama, but it's so hard for me now. I don't know. The words just came effortlessly when I'm young. It is easy to transformed what's on my mind into words.

Why? Naze? What makes this difference? That's what I'm currently searching. Maybe because as an adult I face so many sad reality that I lost trust in fantasy. I lost my imagination. Moreover, I work in a field that doubt everything except there are adequate evidences ^-^.

This blog is one of place that I hope can makes me know myself more. In this challenging world where everyone so busy fighting for this life, I lost my time for works, works, and works. It's time to give myself some me-time. Maybe while I'm searching inside myself through this journey, I could find the remaining fragments of my creativity. ^o^.